Grr .. Personal Rant ...

From the get go, I apologize for the rant and the lack of response. Coming off of Fourth of July, dealing with work and the line - plus life in general it can be a bit hard. I have been thinking about this particular topic since Saturday and had the urge to put it out there just to see the words. It's an issue that I know friends of mine and I try to laugh off but at the end of the day we all wonder about it and as people come and go, we know that we are not the only ones that have an issue with this.



What's up with people? Seriously I think that some people do not know how to talk to people (and honestly nonverbal and verbal skills speak volumes so you should make sure you are watching both when interacting with others). I am an avid believer that two people can say the same thing but the delivery can be night and day! Recently, I attended a meeting and although it was meant for everyone to be "on the same page" clearly, we were not in the same library. Although I was not offended, I left feeling a little empty about the conversation and that which was meant to pump me up, let me feel like my options had been slimmed down to one path.



It's so hard to work and have the passion to go to the same place everyday while you work on something that you LOVE. You know how it is, sometimes you work somewhere and you feel literally drained before you even step inside; however, as soon as you leave you feel like you've had all this pent up energy! Even more ridiculous is the ability to come home and work on your passion until the wee hours of the morning - but it's so satisfying and you feel that you have made a semblance of a step. While you work you feel like you're going through the motions and that the smallest thing can be taken out of context. Depending on the stress and interactions at work, you wonder if there is an appropriate outlet to get out your frustrations. Talk among co-workers can be therapeutic but can also turn nasty. Many of your friends are co-workers and this creates an invisible line or at least a zone where you carefully approach certain topics. Finally you have those on the outside that have no idea in regards to the magnitude of your job and how it makes you react in these odd ways. If anything they feel that there is an imaginary switch that alleviates any ill will that you may have felt at one time in regards to the day or week's activities.



Where is the line between coming up with something great that you vow will never feel like work and will maintain positive energy?? Or do you create a masterpiece only to become jaded and to watch it manifest into something that now you are bound by it? We see how people on the news talk about how a company went from 3 dedicated best friends to a multi-million dollar empire that employs thousands of people. Everyone vows to maintain the pillars of the concept - but then things start to spiral out of control and miss the original intention of the business' products/services. Thus, a decision has to be made. To take care of your day to day, people do what they need to do and hope that it will teach them something that they can use on their passion; however, at the very least it must make sense financially, physically and emotionally. But when the equation starts to slip and the feelings become more unsatisfying - all the reason is gone!



The other day I had the pleasure to watch The Devil Wears Prada and although the book and the movie start to go in opposite directions, I love both of them mainly because I see me in Andy and I see that the job depicted has the strange duality of the one that I hold now. An article in relation to the book talked about how my generation feels the need to "have it all" while not paying their dues. I don't think that it's a matter of now wanting to pay your dues. There is a necessity to running back and forth to get something done, to pause before speaking your mind too quickly in certain situations and of course just learning all facets of the position so that you can appreciate it as you move up. BUT there is also a limit. When you know what you want to do and you know that you're doing something as a temporary means you want to feel that not only do you matter but everntually the playing field evens out. You don't want to feel anxious and as if you continue to give on your side while everyone else retains their initial cards. This does make me fight to be independent but it also lets me know that a person does not need to live this way and that there are options and sometimes the learning curve requires that you simply get out of one car to advance to a new challenge that is not only stretching you but more satifying. Of course this could just be a tired rant of someone who wants to "be there already", is turning 27 and wonders how did time seriously slip away so fast?? If you're an entrepreneur out there let me know your thoughts and how you juggle.



Sigh .... Shake it Off
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Kimmie
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